Children.

Aloha!

I really like kids. Like, REALLY like kids. Like, I see other people's children and I want to be their best friend so I can interact with their children all the time. I know it's kind of a girl thing to want to have kids...and yes, we've been married for a whole month. Whoopee! My father-in-law specifically told me that he doesn't want to be a grandpa any time soon.

BUT....

I know I'd be a great mommy. I just need to get all of my finances and such in order first. Then we can be really prepared and blah blah blah...I know it's better to prepare but I'm impatient. REALLY impatient. I don't think a puppy will fill the void...

And I have no doubt that Trygve will be a wonderful daddy. =] He does want to make sure that he can spend adequate time with our children so he wants to wait 3-4 years until we actually start trying. I understand that. Like I said, I'm just impatient.

*sigh*

I've had a couple of dreams in which Trygve and I are barely older than we are now and we have a little boy and a little girl. The little girl looks a lot like me in the dream and the little boy is younger than her. They both have dark blonde hair and clear, greenish eyes. The little boy has appeared in my dreams before...we have actually named him already...Soren. It's Norweigan. The little girl's name is Aiyana. It's Cherokee. Look them up! =]

...someday...

Honestly, I don't know if I can even HAVE children. My OBGYN thinks I have PCOS, or poly-cystic ovarian syndrome. It's not fun, I tell ya. Apparently it can inhibit getting pregnant...so I'm on a mission to lose my extra weight and get into better cardio and muscle shape (preferably the best shape I've ever been in...shouldn't be too hard since round is the only shape I've ever been in) in order to make it as easy as possible to get pregnant when we can. Lately, though, I've been feeling kinda weird. With PCOS, my body actually THINKS I'm pregnant allllllllllll the time. So I don't ovulate and I have too much testosterone and all this other stuff that pretty much explains a good chunk of who I am and how my body is shaped. I've had some chest soreness lately and I've had these stupid annoying headaches that feel better when I have a hot wrap around my neck. I have a love-hate relationship with my stomach and I've been sleeping a ton lately too...which is starting to bother me in a big way. Since I don't ovulate, I don't really have my monthly girly time very often...and I can't go on birth control to make me shed the stuff until I get my blood pressure under control and I can't do THAT without either going on prescription drugs and exercising or just exercising alone and since I'm currently unemployed and uninsured, I guess it's Pilates for me!!

I find it incredibly annoying that monthly symptoms and pregnancy symptoms are so similar.

Ah, well. I guess I will just have to be very patient. Grrrrr.

Totally unrelated....have you ever heard of Norweigan Scabies???

Ow/ew!